Note: I’m writing Part 1 of this post on Sunday, March 2 (8w3d). I will post this on Tuesday, March 4 (8w5d) because by then I will have had my follow-up ultrasound. Not sure why I’m waiting, probably because I’m being cautiously optimistic and not getting ahead of myself.
Part 1 (8w3d)
I read an amazing blog post yesterday written by Elisha who recently followed my blog. It hit the spot and I feel like it deserves a shout out. I’ve been guilty of not being very optimistic about things and I was probably setting myself up for failure in doing that. Power of positive thinking! I tell myself that I’m managing my emotions, but is that what it really was? Who knows? Either way, I need to speak positivity about this pregnancy so things will go well. I say it every day that I was blessed with this pregnancy. My Little Bean is a blessing! I pray that I will have a successful pregnancy, but also for the strength to deal with whatever happens if it isn’t God’s will.
My symptoms have been up and down. I have a food belly that I like to pretend is a bump. But it’s just a food belly! LOL! Oh well. I like it. My boobs are bigger and the skin on my face has suddenly become SUPER sensitive. I get a bit of nausea from time to time, but nothing uncontrollable. I don’t have the “runs” anymore, but I think the fact that I started taking a probiotic made a HUGE difference. I have had no spotting and I’m very thankful for that. I can’t tell if my nipples are getting darker, but I do see a peak of a linea nigra (although it’s possible it was always there…).
I love yoga pants and anything with a stretchy waist. My evil button up pants are killing me. Once I get past my ultrasound on Tuesday, I’m going to start walking about 20 minutes per day. I’ve been resting a lot, but mainly out of fear of harming Little Bean. I just need the reassurance from the ultrasound to put me at ease. It would be great to have a baby measure about 8w5d with a strong heartbeat.
I’m slowly starting to embrace the idea and get excited about it. I won’t start taking belly pics until after my ultrasound, though. CAUTIOUSLY OPTIMISTIC! LOL!!
I was mucking around with this Chinese predictor that predicts the sex of the baby. Apparently I’m going to have a boy. I know it’s silly, but it was still fun. My gut says “boy” as well, but I would be happy with anything right now. Beggars can’t be choosers.
Part 2 (8w5d)
I LOVE transvaginal ultrasounds. Abdominal ultrasound are sadistic. I have never had to pee so badly!
Anyhoo, after waiting for 10 minutes while the woman ahead of me took forever to book an appointment, I finally got up to the counter. The receptionist knows me and called the tech right away because it was obvious I was uncomfortable. I got in the room and was about to drop my pants when she said to keep them on. Eh? Two years of fertility treatments and this is the first time my pants got to stay on! I guess I shaved my legs for nothing…
The gel was surprisingly and pleasantly warm. She started to press down on my tummy and I swear I was going to pee. All of that was forgotten when I saw my Little Bean on the screen! My Little Bean is not so little!! S/he was measuring at 9w1d (!!!) and had a heartbeat between 168 and 175. So about 3 days big. I almost cried when I saw the flickering heartbeat on the screen! As if I’m pregnant!!!
I had crackers on my desk at work today and a coworker asked about them. I said I was coming down with something and I swear she knows because her face gave it all away! Either way, I said nothing. Only my work mom and my soon to be new boss know on the work front.
I’m over the moon right now. All I can do is pray that I make it past the first trimester. According to this site, my odds of a miscarriage are low. Not 0, but low. Oh my Big Little Bean!